Feels good, man...

So I've been working a lot and...well, working a lot and it's hard for me to find motivation to write. It's not that I don't want to write this, I just give so much of myself to school and regular work, there's just not much left. Ugh. I don't remember what free time really feels like, because whenever I cut myself some slack there's always a bunch of shit that needs to be done. I spent my last weekend just working to catch up and I've already fallen behind again. Somehow.

Yeah, it's a jump going from easy regular classes to college level classes. It's a jump from having too much free time to working almost every hour of the day. Granted, I could quit my job at any time - but I've got too much pride to do that. Every time I consider it, I hear my boss saying "Most people can't handle a job and school at the same time", I feel that self-esteem that I've gotten from working slipping away, and I see my goals, sometimes only a finger's breath away, sometimes miles and miles away, rising up into the sky, so very far away. So...I'll manage somehow.

But it's rough, of course. Trying to have a life at the same time makes things even harder. When I'm not hanging out with my friends, I'm working.

...I wish I had more time to play video games. Sly Cooper is a really short game, but I've only gotten halfway through it. I've had it since Scribblenauts came out. I've got Sly Cooper 1-3, Shadow of the Collosus, and Lost Kingdoms to play, but there's just no time. I do have to sleep sometime.

Oh and fuck Scribblenauts it got kinda boring after the first 5 minutes just so you know. And the adventure levels suck.

Seems like if I give myself any time off, I get screwed. Yesterday, I did a henna tattoo, which looks pretty cool, and I played a little bit of Sly Cooper. Today, I'm trying to get a paper done and a journal and I gotta work tomorrow. Shit shit shit. But of course, I'd have that paper done if it weren't for my shitty skills at finding literary critism. Rrrgh.

But anyways, I picked up Three Days Grace's new album today. I put it in as I was driving and rolled down all the windows so it was freezing. No other human being would've had all of their windows down because it was cold, so I could put it on pretty high and not give a shit.

Who said it was just games that could be cathartic, anyhow?

But yeah anyways when I get a second and a sliver of motivation, I'll tell you all how cool Sly Cooper is.

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