Not talking about games...

We live in a material world. Are you a material girl?

Well, not specifically about games, anyhow. More about things in general because I need to type stuff out, I guess.

So today, I bid adieu to my first pair of cargo pants. I got 'em like a year or two ago, and I love them very much. But today, my umbrella ripped the belt-loop right off of 'em...

Guess I'mma have to be more careful.

So, I'm gonna upload some pictures onto here soon, one for an avatar and one that's going to remain a secret but is very cool and hopefully I'll be able to award that to a game here soon. And I guess I've been kind of dropping hints about new things lately, but haven't really owned up to any of them.

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Oh well.

So. Catharsis. I use that word in my head a lot. Playing video games is very cathartic for me because I don't need to think about life. Just hit the buttons on time or figure out the puzzle. It's nice. I really don't get why people denounce video games so much, although it's probably along the same lines as drinking or drugs if overdone (people dying in MMORPGs anyone?). But of course, we should be happy when people die due to playing too many video games.

It's called thinning out the gene pool, folks. I don't want that sort of addiction swimming around in my gene pool, thanks.

It's also cathartic at the end of a long work day to clean out the gutters that line the drink station at my workplace. Those things get overfilled with ice and random shit. Guess how you clean it? Well, you take a cup and pour lots of hot water down it. Yup. Pretty complicated, right? Well, seeing all of the ice melt and the shit slide down to the end and watching the steam rise above it all is very relieving to see.

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Working sucks. The only reason I work is because I'm working towards a goal I probably won't reach. Well, and because having money is nice, and buying things is nice, but really, I could probably go without working for a while. It really sucks. And I wonder how people who really hate their jobs do it for years and years without putting a bullet in their head.

As for a career, like I said, I think I've settled on one. I've said that before, but this time I think I'm sure. I've wanted to be a lot of things: surgeon, anesthesiologist, lawyer, epidemiologist. But then I wondered about them, and why I had wanted to be one. With the exception of the last profession, I had pretty much been inspired by video games. Trauma Center and Phoenix Wright, up there.

It's also weirdly how I've picked up a lot of my sarcastic traits. I can list off a lot of characters I've emulated...erm..let's see. There was Kratos/Regal, way back when, in the days I played Tales of Symphonia. Maybe a bit of Genis or Raine too. I really loved all of the characters from Symphonia, actually.

And then we go into Tales of the Abyss, with the sarcastic fountain known as Jade. I think he was the only character I took a real liking to, aside from Guy. This is said because I can't even remember the main character's name at the moment. Oh, Luke. That's what his name was. Took me about five minutes.

Jin from Xenosaga (the latter games) was pretty cool too, although his none-too-subtle cry of "Attacking!" when attacking an opponent still never ceases to embarrass me. *facepalm*

Cybil from Trauma Center is an amazing character in my opinion. So cool and so badass. She's an anesthesiologist who's nicknamed "The Iron Vixen".

I don't think there's a Phoenix Wright character you really CAN dislike (aside from the villains). Phoenix, himself, is an awesome guy. Edgeworth is an emo bastard but it's nice to see how he changes through the series. Gumshoe. Do I need to say more? Maya's a very cool sidekick to have along, although she suffers from a bad case of Damsel in Distress. Mia's also very nice to have when you need her, but it confuses me with all the spare time she appears to have in her spoilerific condition (not really but honestly if it's a spoiler go play Phoenix Wright now).

There are a lot of characters I admire, and I have this nagging sensation at the back of my head that that's weird. I mean seriously who uses video game characters as role models? But all of those characters listed above, I don't idolize nearly as much as my own character Chrysocollus, from whom my screenname is taken. She's incredibly smart and talented, strong enough to survive when her mind gets shattered, beautiful, and reckless enough to still have fun. She's amazing and it seems like she can honestly do anything she puts her mind to (which I suppose she can because she only exists IN my mind...) short of raising the dead. Oh and I know she sounds like a Mary Sue right now, but when/if you see her in my novel that I will hopefully write in November, I...well, I guess I can't make promises, but I don't THINK she'll be one.

But I have to say, the EBA guys are pretty effin' good dancers. Although it probably hurts when I miss a note and they get sent flying back.

cathartic

Oh yeah I guess I got sidetracked and forgot to mention that I want to develop video games for a living. Seriously, didn't you all already know that anyways?

Want to tell this author what you think, but you don't want anyone else to see it? Think she's full of it and need to set her straight? Want to worship the ground she walks on? Well, good luck with that last one, but you can email Chrys at catharticgamer@yahoo.com and at least tell her what you think.